Jung-hoo's countless list of feels - Episode 11
Jung-hoo's countless list of feels: Episode 11
Looking back at it now, episode 11 was rather dark, both visually
and emotionally - the former lending itself to the latter, no doubt. And whilst
Jung-hoo was still very much in the dark this episode, his conflicting emotions
paved the way for him to take more of a decisive form of action in which the
end goal was always going to be Yong-shin; and I love how this is depicted in
the lighting of all the above scenes, whereby Yong-shin stands out as a symbol
of truth - the light at the end of the tunnel. And there’s only one way for
Jung-hoo to get there, and that is to brave through the darkness.
For Jung-hoo, the heaviness of his father’s truth is what halts
his footsteps, preventing him from reaching out to Yong-shin. The moment he
hears from Moon-ho that his father was a murder suspect, not a murderer, takes
him further away from the truth and proves emotionally more draining for him,
as now the truth can swing either way, leaving him in a constant state of
restlessness until he gets to the bottom of it. Proving his father’s innocence
is not only tied to his present, but also his future, as it’s the one thing
which will make or break him as an individual who strives to form relationships
in the real world. He desperately wants, or rather needs, his father to be
innocent if he is to hope for a future with Yong Shin – for the weight of his
amoral ways (as Healer) is already proving heavy enough. For him, family is the
one thing that can save him from leading a guilty existence, for it will prove
that his background is one of innocence and morality. It’s rather an archaic
view, but it’s this very traditional way of thinking which allows him to form
lasting relationships with people – even though he’d hate to admit it; his
sincerity is what leads him to care about the the people around him the most,
no matter how brief their encounter.
I love how he’s willing to give up his world for Yong-Shin,
literally. The fact that he openly declares to ahjumma his being relieved of
his Healer duties, suggests that he’d long been prepared for it. It’s a sign
that he’s ready to enter the real world, but in doing so, he has to leave
behind the only world he’s ever known – the world of a night courier.
His vision of the world from above has always been some of my
favourite moments in Healer. It not only speaks volumes about the way he
envisions the world around him, but also the people within it. In this episode
however, I like how the scene ties in with his momentary recollection of
Morumoru Island. Thinking about it now, Jung-hoo has always been living on an
island, for his Healer duties demanded it of him. Ironically, that very island
was a world created for him by Moon-ho during his childhood phase, only
difference being is that he was left on the island alone once he had grown up. Perhaps that is why it came as such a shock to
him when Moon-ho (lies) informs him of Ji Ahn’s death. It’s this lonely
existence of his which had him fend for himself, but in doing so, distanced him
from forming human ties. It seems apt then that it is Yong-shin (Ji-ahn) who
reconnects him to the real world, for it’s her faith in him which lures him
out, allowing him to put his complete trust in her.
His exploration of the real world forces him to step out of
the tent which he’d remained in for so long. But I love that it’s Yong-shin who
leads him out of it, guiding him every step of the way. Her sincere request for
a date was enough to get Jung-hoo stumbling over obstacles in front, but his
faith in her has him follow her every lead, despite remaining in the shadows.
In the end, what separates them is a barrier which Jung-hoo
has formed for himself, partially shielding him from the real world. But when Yong-shin
steps out into the light, he boldly takes hold of her her arm - not wanting to let go; and whilst his
face is kept hidden from view, from Yong-shin at least, his insecurities are laid
bare for us viewers to see – his eyes filled with both longing and fear.
For Yong-shin however, the seeing was never important (as we’ve
gathered from their numerous other encounters), rather it’s the feelings which
transpire between them that holds significance. The way his hand gradually
slides down to join hers – slowly interlocking them, displays genuine feelings
of love and affection, yet still evokes feelings of trepidation. It’s the way
he communicates these feelings to her (without any need for words) which keeps
Yong-shin smiling with confidence, for she understands his predicament, even
without knowing it, showcasing her unwavering faith in him. Is it a wonder then
that the pain and sadness he feels in that moment is so palpable, that just the
mere proximity of their encounter adds to the weight of his problems, showing
how much he longs to be with her.
The distance between them is one which Jung-hoo feels the
full force of, despite being only inches apart. And whilst Yong-shin is able to
move boldly forward, it is Jung-hoo who remains rooted in fear, needing
Yong-shin to lead the way.
By namedx
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Note to all readers:
Sorry for the ridiculously late update - work kind of got in the way! Hopefully, I'll get to finish the rest of the feels now that I have holidays coming up. It seems the feels are still raw, even after a two month hiatus! The power of Healer, ha! As always, thank you for enjoying the list of feels!
namedx
By namedx
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Note to all readers:
Sorry for the ridiculously late update - work kind of got in the way! Hopefully, I'll get to finish the rest of the feels now that I have holidays coming up. It seems the feels are still raw, even after a two month hiatus! The power of Healer, ha! As always, thank you for enjoying the list of feels!
namedx
9 comments
yeah! I won't read it right away. Save to read later. Thanks! Namedx.
ReplyDeleteThank you for continuing the List of Feels. The power of Healer!
ReplyDeleteYou are so appreciated namedx! Thank you for continuing to provide us with the countless feels of Healer. Even though it ended over four months ago, Healer is still fresh in our minds. Please keep up the great work!
ReplyDeletenamedx deqr,
ReplyDeletepray not apologize.... we all do have a "real cruel life" outside the breathtaking world of moro moro.... that we still need to toll and earn a living..you do ... so take your time and wait for inspiration... and awe us every time you post.... your posts, just like many of the others here... are the refuge we seek... you exactly spelled the words we so wanted to say, ... but are unable.... suffer us to thanks you for the indulgence you offer us... a little feels at a time... not all at one go... so we can wait and wait.. and prolong the waiting for nice sweet posts that help us recall THAT AWESOME DAYS when we yearn the Mondays and Tuesdays, and we lost in our Garden of Eden for a good few months, till it ended at 11 Feb...
your posts help us weathered the drought, the hunger that we suffer even since then...
so keep posting please, we plead you.
"It’s the way he communicates these feelings to her (without any need for words) which keeps Yong-shin smiling with confidence, for she understands his predicament, even without knowing it, showcasing her unwavering faith in him." you said.
ReplyDeleteexactly !
a good 4 months have past.... and i have yet to forget,and forgo Youngshin... yes, i do watched other shows like Who are you School,,,, HwaJung... Angry Mom... yet Youngshin is still second to NONE... she just uniquely stand out. she waited when he cannot give a sign that he do cares.. she trusted when signs and evidence is against him,,.. she stand firm when he pushed her away for her goods...
her smile at this scene is one of a classic... a smile of contentment, a smile of trust, a smile of understanding, a smile of true giving... ",,, as i promised, i will not see, i will not ask, i will not say anything... i will not demand... just sit somewhere near me... this entwined hands is more than enough.. and will be suffice to last me for a long time... so i will walk away happily... so do not worry about me..."... what a self sacrifice girl... even as she is hungry and starving for assurance, she is still willing to give comfort n assurance that, he can take his time to come to her....
awesome !
Wonderful!
ReplyDeletenamedx, any more inspiration of feels coming? (mary of bethany here)
ReplyDeleteHey Mary,
DeleteYep, I do intend on completing the list of feels, just a matter of finding the time *sad face*. I'm actually really gutted, coz I had made the intention of completing them before the end of 2015, sigh, but that too has gone.
Work has been rather hectic, but I'm going to try and find the time to finish them up - and since I'm on a drama hiatus, hopefully I'll have more time on my hands to just sit and write about what I love. Sorry to disappoint you! namedx
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Hello from Healer Gallery! We've just finished on translating ep 10 and are about to start on ep11.... will be waiting for ep 12 :)
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